POEMS OF PASSION. BY ELLA WHEELER, Author of " Maurine" and other poems. " Some said, ' John, print it ' ; others said, ' Not so ' : Some said, ' It might do good ' ; others said, No.' " John Bunyan. CHICAGO: BELFORD-CLARKE CO. n>3 Copyright, 1883. By ELLA WHEELER 48 6555 AUG -4 1942 Oh, yott who read some song that I have sung— What know you of the soul from whence it sprung* Dost dream the poet ever speaks aloud His secret thought unto the listening crowd? Go take the murmuring sea-shell from the shore — You have its shape, its color — and no more. It tells not one of those vast mysteries That lie beneath the surface of the seas Our songs are shells, cast out by waves of thought-, Here, take them at your pleasure ; but think not Yoti've seen beneath the stirface of the waves, Where lie our shipwrecks ^ and our coral caves. PREFACE. Among the twelve hundred poems which have emanated from my too prolific pen, there are some forty or fifty which treat entirely of that emotion which has been denominated the " grand passion " — love. A few of those are of an extremely fiery character. When I issued my collection known as " Maurine, and Other Poems," I purposely omitted all, save two or three of these. I had been frequently accused of writing only sentimental verses; and I took pleasure and pride in presenting to the public a volume which contained more than one hundred poems upon other than sentimental topics. But no sooner was the book published than letters of regret came to me from friends and strangers, and from all quarters of the globe, asking why this, or that, love poem was omitted. These regrets were repeated to me by so many people that I decided to collect and issue these poems in a small volume to be called " Poems of Passion." By the word " Passion," I meant the " grand passion " of love. To those who take exceptions to the title of the book I would suggest an early reference to Webster's defini- tions of the word. 2 PREFACE. Since this volume has caused so much agitation throughout the entire country, and even sent a tremor across the Atlantic into the Old World, I beg leave to make a few statements concerning some of the poems. The excitement of mingled horror and amaze seems to center upon four poems, namely: "Delilah," "Ad Finem," " Conversion," and " Communism." " Delilah " was written and first published in 1S77. ^ had been reading history, and became stirred by the power of such women as Aspasia and Cleopatra, over such grand men as Antony, Socrates and Pericles. Under the influence of this feeling I dashed off " Delilah," which I meant to be an expression of the powerful fascination of such a woman upon the memory of a man, even as he neared the hour of death. If the poem is immoral, then the history which inspired it is immoral. I consider it my finest effort. " Ad Finem " was written in 187S. I think there are few women of strong character and affections, who cannot, either from experience or observation, under- stand the violent intensity of regret and despair which sometimes takes possession of the human heart after the loss by death, fate, or the force of circumstances, of some one very dear. In " Ad Finem," I intended to give voice to this very common experience of almost every heart. Many noble women have since told me that the poem was PREFACE. 3 true to life. It is not, as many people have wilfully or stupidly construed it, a bit of poetical advice to woman- kind to "barter the joys of Paradise" for "just one kiss." It is simply an illustration of a moment of turbulent anguish and vehement despair, such moments of unreasoning and overwhelming sorrow, as the most moral people may experience during a lifetime. In " Communism," I endeavored to use a new simile in illustrating that somewhat hackneyed theme of the supremacy of Love over Reason; and simply to carry out my idea, I represented the violent uprising of the Communist emotions against King Reason. u Conversion " was suggested to me by the remark of a gentleman friend. In speaking to me of the woman he loved, he said : " I have always been a skeptic regarding the exist- ence of heaven, but I am so much happier in my love for this woman, than I ever supposed it possible for me to be on earth, that I begin to believe the tales of heav- enly raptures may be true." I embodied his idea in the poem which has brought with a few others, so much censure and criticism upon this volume, although it contains nearly seventy-five other selections quite irreproachable in character, how- ever faulty they may be in construction. It is impossible to pursue a successful literary career and follow the advice of all one's " best friends." I have 4 PREFACE. received severe censure from my orthodox friends for writing liberal verses. My liberal friends condemn my devout and religious poems as " aiding superstition." My early temperance verses were pronounced " fanatical trash " by others. With all due thanks and appreciation for the kind motives which interest so many dear friends in my career, I yet feel compelled to follow the light which my own intellect and judgment cast upon my way, rather than any one of the many conflicting rays which other minds would lend me. ELLA WHEELER. CONTENTS POEMS OF PASSION. Love's Language • 9 Impatience I2 Communism .\ • *4 The Common Lot l6 Individuality x° Friendship after Love 2I Queries 22 Upon the Sand .24 Reunited . 25 What Shall We Do 27 "The Beautiful Blue Danube" 29 Answered • 32 Through the Valley 34 But One 36 6 CONTENTS. Guilo 37 The Duet 39 Little Queen 42 Wherefore 44 ' Delilah 46 Love Song 49 (Time and Love 51 Change 53 Desolation 55 ISAURA 57 Not Quite the Same 59 From the Grave 61 A Waltz-Quadrille 63 Beppo 66 Tired 68 The Speech of Silence . 70 /Conversion 72 Love's Coming 75 Old and New 76 Perfectness .78 Bleak Weather 79 Gracia 82 /Ad Finem 84 New and Old 87 The Trio SS An Answer 89 You Will Forget Me 91 The Farewell of Clarimonde -,,,,.,. 93 CONTENTS. 7 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. The Lost Garden 99 Art and Heart 102 As by Fire 104 t If I Should Die 106 Misalliance 107 Response 109 Drought «... in . The Creed 112 Progress 113 My Friend 115 Red Carnations 116 jLife is Too Short 118 A Sculptor .119 Creation 120 Beyond 121 The Saddest Hour 123 Show Me the Way 124 My. Heritage 126 Resolve 128 At Eleusis 129 Courage a ...... 130 / Solitude . . . . 131 The Year Outgrows the Spring 133 The Beautiful Land of Nod ........ 135 The Tiger 137 Only a Simple Rhyme 138 / I Will be Worthy of It 140 8 CONTENTS. Sonnet 142 Let Me Lean Hard 143 Penalty , 145 Sunset 146 The Wheel of the Breast 147 A Meeting 149 Earnestness .... 151 A Picture 152 Mockery . . , 153 Twin-born . 154 Floods .-.,.' , 155 Regret 157 A Fable . . 158 POEMS OF PASSION. LOVE'S LANGUAGE. How does Love speak? In the faint flush upon the telltale cheek, And in the pallor that succeeds it; by The quivering lid of an averted eye — The smile that proves the parent to a sigh Thus doth Love speak. How does Love speak ? By the uneven heartthrobs, and the freak Of bounding pulses that stand still and ache, While new emotions, like strange barges, make Along vein-channels their disturbing course ; Still as the dawn, and with the dawn's swift force- Thus doth Love speak. 10 POEMS OF PASSION. How does Love speak ? In the avoidance of that which we seek — The sudden silence and reserve when near- The eye that glistens with an unshed tear— The joy that seems the counterpart of fear, As the alarmed heart leaps in the breast, And knows, and names, and greets its godlike guest — Thus doth Love speak. How does Love speak? In the proud spirit suddenly grown meek — The haughty heart grown humble ; in the tender And unnamed light that floods the world with splendor; In the resemblance which the fond eyes trace In all fair things to one beloved face ; In the shy touch of hands that thrill and tremble ; In looks and lips that can no more dissemble — Thus doth Love speak. How does Love speak ? In the wild words that uttered seem so weak LOVE'S LANGUAGE. \\ They shrink ashamed to silence ; in the fire Glance strikes with glance, swift flashing high and higher, Like lightnings that precede the mighty storm ; In the deep, soulful stillness ; in the warm, Impassioned tide that sweeps through throbbing veins, Between the shores of keen delights and pains ; In the embrace where madness melts in bliss, And in the convulsive rapture of a kiss — Thus doth Love speak. 12 POEMS OF PASSION. IMPATIENCE. How can I wait until you come to me ? The once fleet mornings linger by the way; Their sunny smiles touched with malicious glee At my unrest, they seem to pause, and play Like truant children, while I sigh and say, How can I wait? How can I wait ? Of old, the rapid hours Refused to pause or loiter with me long ; But now they idly fill their hands with flowers, And make no haste, but slowly stroll among The summer blooms, not heeding my one song, How can I wait ? How can I wait ? The nights alone are kind ; They reach forth to a future day, and bring Sweet dreams of you to people all my mind ; And time speeds by on light and airy wing. I I feast upon your face^I no more sing, How can I wait ? IMPATIENCE. 13 How can I wait ? The morning breaks the spell A pitying night has flung upon my soul. You are not near me, and I know full well My heart has need of patience and control ; Before we meet, hours, days, and weeks must roll. How can I wait ? How can I wait ? Oh, love, how can I wait .Until the sunlight of your eyes shall shinej Upon my world that seems so desolate ? ^ Until your hand-clasp warms my blood like wine ; Until you come again, oh, Love of mine, How can I wait ? 14 POEMS OF PASSION, COMMUNISM. When my blood flows calm as a purling river, When my heart is asleep and my brain has sway, It is then that I vow we must part forever, That I will forget you, and put you away Out of my life, as a dream is banished Out of the mind when the dreamer awakes ; That I know it will be when the spell has vanished, Better for both of our sakes. When the court of the mind is ruled by Reason, I know it is wiser for us to part ; But Love is a spy who is plotting treason, In league with that warm, red rebel, the Heart. They whisper to me that the King is cruel, That his reign is wicked, his law a sin, And every word they utter is fuel To the flame that smolders within. And on nights like this, when my blood runs riot With the fever of youth and its mad desires, COMMUNISM. 15 When my brain in vain bids my heart be quiet, When my breast seems the centre of lava-fires, Oh, then is the time when most I miss you, And 1 swear by the stars and my soul and say That I will have you, and, hold you, and kiss you, Though the whole world stands in the way. And like Communists, as mad, as disloyal, My fierce emotions roam out of their lair ; They hate King Reason for being royal — They would fire his castle, and burn him there. O love ! they would clasp you, and crush you, and kill you, In the insurrection of uncontrol. Across the miles, does this wild war thrill you That is raging in my soul ? 16 POEMS cf passion: THE COMMON LOT. It is a common fate. — a woman's lot — To waste on one the riches of her soul, Who takes the wealth she gives him, but cannot Repay the interest, and much less the whole. As I look up into your eyes, and wait For some response to my fond gaze and touch, It seems to me there is no sadder fate Than to be doomed to loving overmuch. Are you not kind ? Ah, yes, so very kind — So thoughtful of my comfort, and so true. Yes, yes, dear heart ; but I, not being blind, Know that I am not loved, as I love you. One tenderer word, a little longer kiss, Will fill my soul with music and with song ; And if you seem abstracted, or I miss The heart-tone from your voice, my world goes wrong. THE COMMON LOT. 17 And oftentimes you think me childish — weak — When at some thoughtless word the tears will start ,• Vou cannot understand how aught you speak Has power to stir the depths of my poor heart. I cannot help it, dear, — I wish I could, Or feign indifference where I now adore ; For if I seemed to love you less you would, Manlike, I have no doubt, love me the more. Tis a sad gift, that much applauded thing, A constant heart ; for fact doth daily prove That constancy finds oft a cruel sting, While fickle natures win the deeper love. 18 POEMS OF PASSION. INDIVIDUALITY. 0 yes, I love you, and with all my heart ; Just as a weaker woman loves her own, Better than I love my beloved art, Which, till you came, reigned royally, alone, My king, my master. Since I saw your face 1 have dethroned it, and you hold that place. I am as weak as other women are — Your frown can make the whole world like a tomb. Your smile shines brighter than the sun, by far , Sometimes I think there is not space or room In all the earth for such a love as mine, And it soars up to breathe in realms divine I know that your desertion or neglect Could break my heart, as women's hearts do break, If my wan days had nothing to expect From your love's splendor, all joy would forsake The chambers of my soul. Yes, this is true. And yet, and yet — one thing I keep from you. INDIVID UALITY. 19 There is a subtle part of me, which went Into my long pursued and worshiped art ; Though your great love fills me with such content No other love finds room now, in my heart. Yet that rare essence was my art's alone. Thank God you cannot grasp it; 'tis mine own. Thank God, I say, for while I love you so, With that vast love, as passionate as tender, I feel an exultation as I know I have not made you a complete surrender. Here is my body; bruise it, if you will, And break my heart; I have that somethi?ig still. You cannot grasp it. Seize the breath of morn, Or bind the perfume of the rose as well. God put it in my soul when I was born ; It is not mine to give away, or sell, Or offer up on any altar shrine. It was my art's ; and when not art's, 'tis mine, 20 POEMS OF PASSION, For love's sake, I can put the art away, Or anything which stands 'twixt me and you. But that strange essence God bestowed, I say, To permeate the work He gave to do : And it cannot be drained, dissolved, or sent Through any channel, save the one He meant. FRIENDSHIP AFTER LOVE. 21 FRIENDSHIP AFTER LOVE. After the fierce midsummer all ablaze Has burned itself to ashes, and expires In the intensity of its own fires, There come the mellow, mild, St. Martin days Crowned with the calm of peace, but sad with haze. So after Love has led us, till he tires Of his own throes, and torments, and desires, Comes large-eyed friendship : with a restful gaze5 He beckons us to follow, and across Cool verdant vales we wander free from care. Is it a touch of frost lies in the air ? Why are we haunted with a sense of loss? We do not wish the pain back, or the heat ; And yet, and yet, these days are incomplete. 522 POEMS OF passion: QUERIES. Well, how has it been with you since we met That last strange time of a hundred times ? When we met to swear that we could forget — I your caresses, and you my rhymes — The rhyme of my lays that ra2ig like a bell, And the rhyme of my heart with yours, as well ? How has it been since we drank that last kiss, That was bitter with lees of the wasted wine ; When the tattered remains of a threadbare bliss, And the wornout shreds of a joy divine, With a year's best dreams and hopes, were cast Into the ragbag of the Past ? Since Time, the rag-buyer, hurried away m With a chuckle of glee at the bargain made, Did you discover, like me, one day, That hid in the folds of those garments frayed Were priceless jewels and diadems — The soul's best treasures, the heart's best gems ? QUERIES. 23 Have you, too, found that you could not supply The place of those jewels so rare and chaste ? Do all that you borrow, or beg, or buy, Prove to be nothing but skilful paste ? Have you found pleasure, as I find art, Not all sufficient to fill your heart ? Do you sometimes sigh for the tattered sheds Of the old delight that we cast away, And find no worth in the silken threads Of newer fabrics we wear to-day ? Have you thought the bitter of that last kiss Better than sweets of a later bliss ? What idle queries ! — or yes or no — Whatever your answer, I understand That there is no pathway by which we can go Back to the dead past's wonderland ; And the gems he purchased from me, and you, There is no rebuying, from Time the Jew. 24 POEMS OF PASSION. UPON THE SAND. All love that has not friendship for its base, Is like a mansion built upon the sand. Though brave its walls as any in the land, And its tall turrets lift their heads in grace ; Though skilful and accomplished artists trace Most beautiful designs on every hand, And gleaming statues in dim niches stand, And fountains play in some flow'r-hidden place : Yet, when from the frowning east a sudden gust Of adverse fate is blown, or sad rains fall Day in, day out, against its yielding wall, Lo ! the fair structure crumbles to the dust. Love, to endure life's sorrow and earth's woe, Needs friendship's solid masonwork below. REUNITED. 25 REUNITED. Let us begin, dear love, where we left off ; Tie up the broken threads of that old dream; And go on happy as before ; and seem Lovers again, though all the world may scoff. Let us forget the graves, which lie between Our parting and our meeting, and the tears That rusted out the goldwork of the years ; The frosts that fell upon our gardens green. Let us forget the cold malicious fate Who made our loving hearts her idle toys, And once more revel in the old sweet joys Of happy love. Nay, it is not too late ! Forget the deep-ploughed furrows in my brow ; Forget the silver gleaming in my hair; Look only in my eyes ! Oh ! darling, there The old love shone no warmer then than now. 20 POEMS OF FASSION. Down in the tender deeps of thy clear eyes, I find the lost sweet memory of my youth, Bright with the holy radiance of thy truth, And hallowed with the blue of summer skies. Tie up the broken threads, and let us go, Like reunited lovers, hand in hand, Back, and yet onward, to the sunny land, Of our To Be, which was our Long Ago. WHA T SHALL WE DO? 27 WHAT SHALL WE DO? Here now, forevermore, our lives must part. My path leads there, and yours another way. What shall we do with this fond love, dear heart ? It grows a heavier burden day by day. Hide it ? In all earth's caverns, void and vast, There is not room enough to hide it, dear ; Not even the mighty storehouse of the past Could cover it, from our own eyes, I fear. Drown it ? Why, were the contents of each ocean Merged into one great sea, too shallow then Would be its waters, to sink this emotion So deep it could not rise to life again. Burn it ? In all the furnace flames below, It would not in a thousand years expire. Nay ! it would thrive, exult, expand and grow, For from its very birth it fed on fire. 28 POEMS OF PASSION. Starve it? Yes, yes, that is the only way. Give it no food, of glance, or word, or sigh. No memories, even, of any bygone day ; No crumbs of vain regrets — so let it die. " THE BEAUTIFUL BLUE DANUBE." 29 "THE BEAUTIFUL BLUE DANUBE." They drift down the hall together ; He smiles in her lifted eyes. Like waves of that mighty river, The strains of the " Danube " rise. They float on its rhythmic measure, Like leaves on a summer-stream ; And here, in this scene of pleasure, I bury my sweet, dead dream. Through the cloud of her dusky tresses, Like a star, shines out her face ; And the form his strong arm presses Is sylph-like in its grace. As a leaf on the bounding river Is lost in the seething sea, I know that forever and ever My dream is lost to me, SO POEMS OF PASSION. And still the viols are playing That grand old wordless rhyme; And still those two are swaying In perfect tune and time. If the great bassoons that mutter, If the clarinets that blow, Were given a voice to utter The secret things they know, Would the lists of the slain who slumber On the Danube's battle-plains The unknown hosts outnumber Who die 'neath the "Danube's" strains? Those fall where cannons rattle, ' Mid the rain of shot and shell ; But these, in a fiercer battle, Find death in the music's swell. With the river's roar of passion Is blended the dying groan ; But here, in the halls of fashion, Hearts break, and make no moan. - THE BEAUTIFUL BLUE DANUBE:' 31 And the music, swelling and sweeping, Like the river, knows it all ; But none are counting or keeping The lists of these who fall. 32 POEMS OF PASSION. ANSWERED. Good-by — yes, I am going. Sudden ? Well you are right. But a startling truth came home to me With sudden force last night. What is it? shall I tell you — Nay, that is why I go. I am running away from the battlefield, Turning my back on the foe. Riddles ? You think me cruel ! Have you not been most kind ? Why, when you question me like that What answer can I find? You fear you failed to amuse me, Your husband's friend and guest, Whom he bade you entertain and please- Well, you have done your best. ANSWERED. Then why am I going ! A friend of mine abroad, Whose theories I have been acting upon, Has proven himself a fraud. You have heard me quote from Plato A thousand times no doubt ; Well, I have discovered he did not know What he was talking about. You think I am speaking strangely ? You cannot understand ? Well, let me look down into your eyes, And let me take your hand. I am running away from danger — I am flying before I fall ; I am going because with heart and soul I love you — that is all. There, now, you are white with anger. I knew it would be so. You should not question a man too close When he tells you he must go. 34 POEMS OF PASSION. THROUGH THE VALLEY. [AFTER JAMES THOMSON.] As I came through the Valley of Despair, As I came through the valley, on my sight, More awful than the darkness of the night, Shone glimpses of a Past that had betn fair, And memories of eyes that used to smile, And wafts of perfume from a vanished isle, As I came through the valley. As I came through the valley I could see, As I came through the valley, fair and far, As drowning men look up and see a star, The fading shore of my lost Used-to-be ; And like an arrow in my heart I heard The last sad notes of Hope's expiring bird, As I came through the valley. THROUGH THE VALLEY. 35 As I came through the valley desolate, As I came through the valley, like a beam Of lurid lightning I beheld a gleam Of Love's great eyes that now were full of hate. Dear God ! dear God ! I could bear all but that ; But I fell down soul-stricken, dead, thereat, As I came through the valley. 36 POEMS OF PASSION, BUT ONE. The year has but one June, dear friend, The year has but one June ; And when that perfect month doth end, The robin's song, though loud, though long, Seems never quite in tune. The rose, though still its blushing face By bee and bird is seen, May yet have lost that subtle grace — That nameless spell the winds know well — Which makes its gardens queen. Life's perfect June, love's red, red rose, Have burned and bloomed for me. Though still youth's summer sunlight glows ; Though thou art kind, dear friend, I find I have no heart for thee. GUILO. GUILO. 37 ^es, yes ! I love thee, Guilo ; thee alone. Why dost thou sigh, and wear that face of sorrow? The sunshine is today's, although it shone On yesterday, and may shine on tomorrow. I love but thee, my Guilo ! be content, The greediest heart can claim but present pleasure. The future is thy God's. The past is spent. Today is thine; clasp close the precious treasure. See how I love thee, Guilo ! Lips and eyes Could never under thy fond gaze dissemble. I could not feign these passion-laden sighs, Deceiving thee, my pulses would not tremble. "So I loved Romney." Hush, thou foolish one— I should forget him wholly, wouldst thou let me; Or but remember that his day was done From that most supreme hour when first I met thee. 38 POEMS OF PASSION. " And Paul ? " Well, what of Paul ? Paul had blue eyes, And Romney gray, and thine are darkly tender ! One finds fresh feelings under change of skies — A new horizon brings a newer splendor. As I love thee, I never loved before ; Believe me, Guilo, for I speak most truly. What though to Romney and to Paul I swore The selfsame words ; my heart now worships newly. We never feel the same emotion twice : No two ships ever ploughed the selfsame billow. The waters change, with every fall and rise ; So, Guilo, go contented to thy pillow. THE DUET. 39 THE DUET. I was smoking a cigarette ; Maud, my wife, and the tenor McKey, Were singing together a blithe duet, And days it were better I should forget Came suddenly back to me. Days when life seemed a gay masque ball, And to love and be loved was the sum of it all. As they sang together, the whole scene fled, The room's rich hangings, the sweet home air, Stately Maud, with her proud blonde head, And I seemed to see in her place instead A wealth of blue-black hair, And a face, ah ! your face, — yours, Lisette, A face it were wiser I should forget. We were back — well, no matter when or where, But you remember, I know, Lisette, 40 POEMS OF PASSION. I saw you, dainty, and debonnaire, With the very same look that you used to wear In the days I should forget. And your lips, as red, as the vintage we quaffed, Were pearl-edged bumpers of wine when you laughed. Two small slippers with big rosettes, Peeped out under your kilt-skirt there, While we sat smoking our cigarettes (Oh, I shall be dust when my heart forgets !) And singing that selfsame air; And between the verses for interlude, I kissed your throat, and your shoulders nude. You were so full of a subtle fire, You were so warm and so sweet, Lisette ; You were everything men admire, And there were no fetters to make us tire, For you were — a pretty grisette. But you loved, as only such natures can, With a love that makes heaven or hell for a man. ******* THE DUET. 41 They have ceased singing that old duet, Stately Maud and the tenor McKey. " You are burning your coat with your cigarette, And qu9 avez vous, dearest, your lids are wet,''* Maud says, as she leans o'er me, And I smile, and lie to her, husband-wise, "Oh, it is nothing but smoke in my eyes." 42 POEMS OF PASSION. LITTLE QUEEN. Do you remember the name I wore — The old pet-name of Little Queen — In the dear, dead days, that are no more, The happiest days of our lives, I ween ? For we loved with that passionate love of youth That blesses but once with its perfect bliss, — A love that, in spite of its trust and truth, Seems never to thrive, in a world like this. I lived for you, and you lived for me ; All was centered in "Little Queen"; And never a thought in our hearts had we That strife or trouble could come between. What utter sinking of self it was ! How little we cared for the world of men! For love's fair kingdom, and love's sweet laws, Were all of the world and life to us then. LITTLE QUEEN. ±o But a love like ours was a challenge to fate ; She rang down the curtain and shifted the scene; Yet sometimes now, when the day grows late, I can hear you calling for Little Queen ; For a happy home and a busy life Can never wholly crowd out our past ; In the twilight pauses that come from strife, You will think of me while life shall last. And however sweet the voice of fame May sing to me of a great world's praise, I shall long sometimes for the old pet-name That you gave to me in the dear, dead days ; And nothing the angel band can say, When I reach the shores of the great Unseen> Can please me so much as on that day To hear your greeting of M Little Queen, s* 44 POEMS OF PASSION. WHEREFORE. Wherefore in dreams are sorrows borne anew A healed wound opened, or the past revived ? Last night in my deep sleep I dreamed of you — Again the old love woke in me, and thrived On looks of fire, and kisses, and sweet words Like silver waters purling in a stream, Or like the amorous melodies of birds : A dream — a dream. Again upon the glory of the scene There settled that dread shadow of the cross That, when hearts love too well, falls in between- That warns them of impending wo and loss. Again I saw you drifting from my life, As barques are rudely parted in a stream ; Again my heart was torn with awful strife : A dream — a dream. WHEREFORE. 45 Again the deep night settled on me there, Alone I groped, and heard strange waters roll. Lost in that blackness of supreme despair That comes but once to any living soul. Alone, afraid, I called your name aloud — Mine eyes, unveiled, beheld white stars agleam, And lo ! awake, I cried " Thank God, thank God, A dream — a dream ! n 46 fO£MS OF J>ASSJOM / DELILAH. In the midnight of darkness and terror, When I would grope nearer to God, With my back to a record of error And the highway of sin I have trod, There come to me shapes I would banish— The shapes of the deeds I have done ; And I pray and I plead till they vanish- All vanish and leave me, save one. That one, with a smile like the splendor Of the sun in the middle-day skies— That one, with a spell that is tender- That one with a dream in her eyes- Cometh close, in her rare Southern beauty, Her languor, her indolent grace ; And my soul turns its back on its duty, To live in the light of her face. DELILAH. 4? She touches my cheek, and I quiver — I tremble with exquisite pains ; She sighs — like an overcharged river My blood rushes on through my veins ; She smiles — and in mad-tiger fashion, As a she-tiger fondles her own, I clasp her with fierceness and passion, And kiss her with shudder and groan. Once more, in our love's sweet beginning, I put away God and the World ; Once more, in the joys of our sinnings, Are the hopes of eternity hurled. There is nothing my soul lacks or misses As I clasp the dream-shape to my breast ; In the passion and pain of her kisses Life blooms to its richest and best. O ghost of dead sin unrelenting, Go back to the dust, and the sod ! Too dear and too sweet for repenting, Ye stand between me and my God. 48 POEMS OF PASSIOAT. If I, by the Throne, should behold you, Smiling up with those eyes loved so well, Close, close in my arms I would fold you, And drop with you down to sweet Hell ! LOVE SONG. 49 LOVE SONG. Once in the world's first prime, When nothing lived or stirred ; Nothing but new-born Time, Nor was there even a bird — The Silence spoke to a Star ; But I do not dare repeat What it said to its love afar, It was too sweet, too sweet. But there, in the fair world's youth, Ere sorrow had drawn breath When nothing was known but Truth, Nor was there even death, The Star to Silence was wed, And the Sun was priest that day. And they made their bridal-bed High in the Milky Way, §0 POEMS OF PASSION. For the great white star had heard Her silent lover's speech ; It needed no passionate word To pledge them each to each. O lady fair and far Hear, oh, hear, and apply ! Thou the beautiful Star — The voiceless Silence, I. TIME AND LOVE. 51 TIME AND LOVE. Time flies. The swift hours hurry by And speed us on to untried ways; New seasons ripen, perish, die, And yet love stays. The old, old love — like sweet at first, At last like bitter Wine — I know not if it blest or curst, Thy life and mine. Time flies. In vain our prayers, our tears We cannot tempt him to delays ; Down to the past he bears the years, And yet love stays. Through changing task and varying dream We hear the same refrain, As one can hear a plaintive theme Run through each strain. 52 POEMS OF PASSION. Time flies. He steals our pulsing youth, He robs us of our care-free days, He takes away our trust and truth, And yet love stays. O Time ! take love ! When love is vain, When all its best joys die — When only its regrets remain — Let love, too, fly. CHANGE. 53 CHANGE. Changed ? Yes, I will confess it — I have changed. I do not love you in the old fond way. I am your friend still — time has not estranged One kindly feeling of that vanished day. But the bright glamour which made life a dream, The rapture of that time, its sweet content, Like visions of a sleeper's brain they seem — And yet I cannot tell you how they went. Why do you gaze with such accusing eyes Upon me, dear ? Is it so very strange That hearts, like all things underneath God's skies* Should sometimes feel the influence of change ? The birds, the flowers, the foliage of the trees, The stars which seem so fixed, and so sublime, Vast continents, and the eternal seas, — All these do change, with ever-changing time. 54 POEMS OF PASSION. The face our mirror shows us year on year Is not the same ; our dearest aim, or need, Our lightest thought, or feeling, hope, or fear, All, all the law of alternation heed. How can we ask the human heart to stay, Content with fancies of Youth's earliest hours ? The year outgrows the violets of May, Although, maybe, there are no fairer flowers. And life may hold no sweeter love than this, Which lies so cold, so voiceless, and so dumb. And will I miss it, dear ? ^ Why, yes, we miss \ The violets always — till the roses come ! ^ DESOLA TION. 55 DESOLATION. I think that the bitterest sorrow or pain Of love unrequited, or cold death's wo, Is sweet, compared to that hour when we knovr That some grand passion is on the wane. When we see that the glory, and glow, and grace Which lent a splendor to night and day, Are surely fading, and showing the gray And dull groundwork of the commonplace. When fond expressions on dull ears fall, When the hands clasp calmly without one thrill, When we cannot muster by force of will The old emotions that came at call. When the dream has vanished we fain would keep, When the heart, like a watch, runs out of gear, And all the savor goes out of the year, Oh, then is the time — if we could — to weep ! 56 POEMS OF PASSION. But no tears soften this dull, pale wo, We must sit and face it with dry, sad eyes. If we seek to hold it, the swifter joy flies We can only be passive, and let it go. IS AURA. 57 ISAURA. Dost thou not tire, Isaura, of this play? What play ? Why, this old play of winning hearts ! Nay, now, lift not thine eyes in that feigned way ; 'Tis all in vain — I know thee, and thine arts. Let us be frank, Isaura. I have made A study of thee ; and while I admire The practiced skill with which thy plans are laid, I can but wonder if thou dost not tire. Why, I tire even of Hamlet and Macbeth ! When overlong the season runs, I find Those master-scenes of passion, blood, and death, After a time, do pall upon my mind. Dost thou not tire of lifting up thine eyes To read the story thou hast read so oft — Of ardent glances, and deep quivering sighs, Of haughty faces suddenly grown soft ? 58 POEMS OF PASSION. Is it not stale, oh, very stale, to thee, The scene that follows ? Hearts are much the same The loves of men but vary in degree — They find no new expressions for the flame. Thou must know all they utter ere they speak, As I know Hamlet's part, whoever plays. Oh, does it not seem sometimes poor and weak r I think thou must grow weary of their ways. I pity thee, Isaura ! I would be The humblest maiden with her dream untold, Rather than live a Queen of Hearts, like thee, And find life's rarest treasures stale and old. I pity thee ; for now, let come what may, Fame, glory, riches, yet life will lack all. Wherewith can salt be salted ? And what way. Can life be seasoned after love doth pall ? NOT QUITE THE SAME. 59 NOT QUITE THE SAME. Not quite the same the springtime seems to me, Since that sad season when in separate ways Our paths diverged. There are no more such days As dawned for us in that lost time when we Dwelt in the realm of dreams, illusive dreams ; Spring may be just as fair now, but it seems Not quite the same. Not quite the same in life, since we two parted, Knowing it best to go our ways alone. Fair measures of success we both have known, And pleasant hours ; and yet something departed Which gold, nor fame, nor anything we win, Can all replace. And either life has been Not quite the same. Love is not quite the same, although each heart Has formed new ties, that are both sweet and true \ But that wild rapture, which of old we knew, GO POEMS OF PASS/O A\ Seems to have been a something set apart With that lost dream. There is no passion, now, Mixed with this later love, which seems, somehow, Not quite the same. Not quite the same am I. My inner being Reasons and knows that all is for the best. Yet vague regrets stir always in my breast, As my soul's eyes turn sadly backward, seeing The vanished self, that ever more must be This side of what we call eternity, Not quite the same. FROM THE GRAVE. 61 FROM THE GRAVE. When the first sere leaves of the year were falling, I heard, with a heart that was strangely thrilled, Out of the grave of a dead Past calling, A voice I fancied forever stilled. All through winter, and spring, and summer, Silence hung over that grave like a pall ; But, borne on the breath of the last sad comer, I listen again to the old-time call. It is only a love of a bygone season, A senseless folly that mocked at me, A reckless passion that lacked all reason ; So I killed it, and hid it where none could see. I smothered it first to stop its crying, Then stabbed it through with a good sharp blade ; And cold and pallid I saw it lying, And deep — ah ! deep was the grave I made. 62 POEMS OF PASSION. But now I know that there is no killing A thing like Love, for it laughs at Death. There is no hushing, there is no stilling That which is part of your life and breath. You may bury it deep, and leave behind you The land, the people that knew your slain ; It will push the sods from its grave, and find you On wastes of water or desert plain. You may hear but tongues of a foreign people, You may list to sounds that are strange and new: But, clear as a silver bell in a steeple, That voice from the grave shall call to you. You may rouse your pride, you may use your reason, And seem for a space to slay Love so ; But, all in its own good time and season, It will rise and follow wherever you go. You shall sit sometimes, when the leaves are falling, Alone with your heart, as I sit to day, And hear that voice from your dead Past calling Out of the graves that you hid away. WAL TZ-QUADRILLE. A WALTZ-QUADRILLE. The band was playing a waltz-quadrille, I felt as light as a wind-blown feather, As we floated away, at the caller's will, Through the intricate, mazy dance together. Like mimic armies our lines were meeting, Slowly advancing, and then retreating, All decked in their bright array ; And back and forth to the music's rhyme We moved together, and all the time I knew you were going away. The fold of your strong arm sent a thrill From heart to brain as we gently glided Like leaves-on the wave of that waltz quadrille Parted, met, and again divided — ■ You drifting one way, and I another, Then suddenly turning and facing each other, Then off in the blithe chasse, 64 POEMS OF PASSION. Then airily back to our places swaying, While every beat of the music seemed saying That you were going away. I said to my heart, "Let us take our fill Of mirth, and music, and love, and laughter; For it all must end with this waltz-quadrille, And life will be never the same life after. O, that the caller might go on calling, O, that the music might go on falling Like a shower of silver spray, While we whirled on to the vast Forever, Where no hearts break, and no ties sever, And no one goes away." A clamor, a crash, and the band was still, 'Twas the end of the dream, and the end of the measure The last low notes of that waltz quadrille Seemed like a dirge o'er the death of Pleasure. You said good-night, and the spell was over — ■ Too warm for a friend, and too cold for a lover — WAL TZ- Q UADRILLE. 65 There was nothing else to say; But the lights looked dim, and the dancers weary, And the music was sad, and the hall was dreary, After you went away. 66 POEMS OF PASSION. BEPPO. Why art thou sad, my Beppo ? But last eve, Here at my feet, thy dear head on my breast, I heard thee say thy heart would no more grieve Or feel the olden ennui, and unrest. What troubles thee ? Am I not all thine own — I, so long sought, so sighed for and so dear? And do I not live but for thee alone ? " Thou hast seen Lippo, who?n 1 loved last year / " Well, what of that? Last year is naught to me — 'Tis swallowed in the ocean of the past. Art thou not glad 'twas Lippo, and not thee, Whose brief bright day in that great gulf was cast. Thy day is all before thee. Let no cloud, Here in the very morn of our delight, Drift up from distant foreign skies, to shroud, Our sun of love whose radiance is so bright. BEPPO. 67 " Thou art not first ? " Nay, and he who would be Defeats his own heart's dearest purpose then. No truer truth was ever told to thee — Who has loved most, he best can love again. If Lippo (and not he alone) has taught The arts that please thee, wherefore art thou sad ? Since all my vast love-lore to thee is brought, Look up and smile, my Beppo, and be glad. 68 POEMS OF PASSION. TIRED. I am tired tonight, and something, The wind maybe, or the rain, Or the cry of a bird in the copse outside, Has brought back the past, and its pain. And I feel, as I sit here thinking, That the hand of a dead old June Has reached out hold of my heart's loose strings, And is drawing them up in tune. I am tired tonight, and I miss you, And long for you, love, through tears ; And it seems but today that I saw you go — You, who have been gone for years. And I seem to be newly lonely — I, who am so much alone ; And the strings of my heart are well in tune, But they have not the same old tone. TIRED. 69 I am tired; and that old sorrow Sweeps down the bed of my soul, As a turbulent river might suddenly break Away from a dam's control. It beareth a wreck on its bosom, A wreck with a snow-white sail, And the hand on my heart-strings thrums away, But they only respond with a wail. 70 POEMS OF PASSION. THE SPEECH OF SILENCE. The solemn Sea of Silence lies between us; I know thou livest, and thou lovest me ; And yet I wish some white ship would come sailing Across the ocean, bearing word from thee. The dead-calm awes me with its awful stillness. No anxious doubts or fears disturb my breast; I only ask some little wave of language, To stir this vast infinitude of rest. I am oppressed with this great sense of loving ; So much I give, so much receive from thee, Like subtle incense, rising from a censer, So floats the fragrance of thy love round me. All speech is poor, and written words unmeaning; Yet such I ask, blown hither by some wind, To give relief to this too perfect knowledge, The Silence so impresses on my mind. THE SPEECH OF SILENCE. 71 How poor the love that needeth word or message, To banish doubt or nourish tenderness ; I ask them but to temper love's convictions The Silence all too fully doth express. Too deep the language which the spirit utters ; Too vast the knowledge which my soul hath stirred. Send some white ship across the Sea of Silence, And interrupt its utterance with a word. 72 POEMS OF PASSION. CONVERSION. I have lived this life as the skeptic lives it, I have said the sweetness was less than the gall Praising, nor cursing, the Hand that gives it, I have drifted aimlessly through it all. I have scoffed at the tale of a so-called heaven, I have laughed at the thought of a Supreme Friend ; I have said that it only to man was given To live, to endure ; and to die was the end. But now I know that a good God reigneth, Generous-hearted, and kind and true ; Since unto a worm like me he deigneth To send so royal a gift as you. Bright as a star you gleam on my bosom, Sweet as a rose that the wild bee sips ; And I know, my own, my beautiful blossom, That none but a God could mould such lips. CONVERSION, And I believe, in the fullest measure That ever a strong man's heart could hold, In all the tales of heavenly pleasure By poets sung, or by prophets told ; For in the joy of your shy, sweet kisses, Your pulsing touch and your languid sigl\ I am filled and thrilled with better blisses Than ever were claimed for souls on high And now I have faith in all the stories Told of the beauties of unseen lands ; Of royal splendors and marvellous glories Of the golden city not made with hands For the silken beauty of falling tresses, Of lips all dewy and cheeks aglow, With — what the mind in a half trance guesses, Of the twin perfection of drifts of snow. Of limbs like marble, of thigh and shoulder, Carved like a statue in high relief — These, as the eyes and the thoughts grow bolder, Leave no room for an unbelief. U POEMS OF PASSWtf. So my lady, my queen most royal, My skepticism has passed away ,* If you are true to me, true and loyal, I will believe till the Judgment-day. LOVE'S COMING. 76 LOVE'S COMING. She had looked for his coming as warriors come, • With the clash of arms and the bugle's call ; But he came instead with a stealthy tread, Which she did not hear at all. She had thought how his armor would blaze in the sun, As he rode like a prince to claim his bride : In the sweet dim light of the falling night She found him at her side. She had dreamed how the gaze of his strange, bold eye Would wake her heart to a sudden glow: She found in his face the familiar grace Of a friend she used to know. She had dreamed how his coming would stir her soul, As the ocean is stirred by the wild storm's strife : He brought her the balm of a heavenly calm, And a peace which crowned her life. 76 POEMS OF PASSION. OLD AND NEW. Long have the poets vaunted, in their lays, Old times, old loves, old friendship, and old wine. Why should the old monopolize all praise ? Then let the new claim mine. Give me strong new friends, when the old prove weak, Or fail me in my darkest hour of need ; Why perish with the ship that springs aleak, Or lean upon a reed ? Give me new love, warm, palpitating, sweet, When all the grace and beauty leaves the old; When like a rose it withers at my feet, Or like a hearth grows cold Give me new times, bright with a prospeious cheer, In place of old, tear-blotted, burdened days ; I hold a sunlit present far more dear, And worthy of my praise. OLD AND NEW. 77 When the old creeds are threadbare, and worn through, And all too narrow for the broadening soul, Give me the fine, firm texture of the new, Fair, beautiful and whole ! 78 POEMS OF passion: PERFECTNESS. All perfect things are saddening in effect. The autumn wood robed in irs scarlet clothes, The matchless tinting on the royal rose Whose velvet leaf by no least flaw is flecked. Love's supreme moment, when the soul unchecked Soars high as heaven, and its best rapture knows, These hold a deeper pathos than our woes, Since they leave nothing better to expect. Resistless change, when powerless to improve, Can only mar. The gold will pale to gray — No thing remains tomorrow as today, — The rose will not seem quite so fair, and love Must find its measures of delight made less. Ah, how imperfect is all Perfectness ! BLEAK WEATHER. 79 BLEAK WEATHER. Dear Love, where the red lilies blossomed and grew The white snows are falling ; And all through the woods where I wandered witn you The loud winds are calling ; And the robin that piped to us tune upon tune, Neath the oak, you remember, O'er hilltop and forest has followed the June And left us December. He has left like a friend who is true in the sun And false in the shadows ; He has found new delights in the land where he's gone, Greener woodlands and meadows. Let him go! what care we ? let the snow shroud the lea Let it drift on the heather ; We can sing through it all : I have you, you have me, And we'll laugh at the weather. 80 POEMS OP PASSION. The old year may die and a new year be born That is bleaker and colder : It cannot dismay us ; we dare it, we scorn, For our love makes us bolder. Ah, Robin ! sing loud on your far distant lea, You friend in fair weather! But here is a song sung that's fuller of glee By two warm hearts together. ATTRACTION. S3 ATTRACTION. The meadow and the mountain with desire Gazed on each other, till a fierce unrest Surged 'neath the meadow's seemingly calm breast, And all the mountain's fissures ran with fire. A mighty river rolled between them there. What could the mountain do but gaze and burn? What could the meadow do but look and yearn, And gem its bosom to conceal despair? Their seething passion agitated space, Till lo ! .the lands a sudden earthquake shook, The river fled : the meadow leaped, and took The leaning mountain in a close embrace. 82 POEMS OF PASSION. GRACIA. Nay, nay, Antonio ! nay, thou shall not blame her, My Gracia, who hath so deserted me. Thou art my friend ; but if thou dost defame her I shall not hesitate to challenge thee. "Curse and forget her?" so I might another One not so bounteous natured or so fair ; But she, Antonio, she was like no other — I curse her not, because she was so rare. She was made out of laughter and sweet kisses; Not blood, but sunshine, through her blue veins ran ; Her soul spilled over with its wealth of blisses, — She was too great for loving but a man. None but a god could keep so rare a creature — I blame her not for her inconstancy; When I recall each radiant smile, and feature, I wonder she so long was true to me. GRACIA. 83 Call her not false or fickle. I, who love her, Do hold her not unlike the royal sun, That, all unmated, roams the wide world over And lights all worlds, but lingers not with one. If she were less a goddess, more a woman, And so had dallied for a time with me, And then had left me, I, who am but human, Would slay her, and her newer love, may be. But since she seeks Apollo, or another Of those lost gods (and seeks him all in. vain), And has loved me as well as any other Of her men-loves, why, I do not complain. 84 POEMS OF PASSION. AD FINEM. On the white throat of the useless passion That scorched my soul with its burning breath, I clutched my ringers in murderous fashion, And gathered them close in a grip of death; For why should I fan, or feed with fuel, A love that showed me but blank despair ? So my hold was firm, and my grasp was cruel — I meant to strangle it then and there ! I thought it was dead. But with no warning, It rose from its grave last night, and came And stood by my bed till the early morning, And over and over it spoke your name. Its throat was red where my hands had held it, It burned my brow with its scorching breath ; And I said, the moment my eyes beheld it, " A love like this can know no death." AD FINEM. 85 / For just one kiss that your lips have given In the lost and beautiful past to me, I would gladly barter my hopes of Heaven ^ And all the bliss of Eternity. For never a joy are the angels keeping To lay at my feet in Paradise, Like that of into your strong arms creeping, And looking into your love-lit eyes. I know, in the way that sins are reckoned, This thought is a sin of the deepest dye j But I know, too, if an angel beckoned, Standing close by the Throne on High, And you, adown by the gates infernal, Should open your loving arms and smile, I would turn my back on things supernal, To lie on your breast a little while. To know for an hour you were mine completely — Mine in body and soul, my own — I would bear unending tortures sweetly, With not a murmur and not a moan. 86 POEMS OF PASSION. A lighter sin or a lesser error Might change through hope or fear divine ; But there is no fear, and hell has no terror To change or alter a love like mine. NEW AND OLD. 87 NEW AND OLD. I and new love, in all its living bloom, Sat vis-a-vis, white tender twilight hours Went softly by us, treading as on flowers. Then suddenly I saw within the room The old love, long since lying in its tomb. It dropped the cerecloth from its fleshless face And smiled on me, with a remembered grace That, like the noontide, lit the gloaming's gloom. Upon its shroud there hung the grave's green mould, About it hung the odor of the dead ; Yet from its cavernous eyes such light was shed That all my life seemed gilded, as with gold ; Unto the trembling new love " Go," I said, " I do not need thee, for I have the old." 88 POEMS OF PASSION. THE TRIO. We love but once. The great gold orb of light From dawn to eventide doth cast his ray ; But the full splendor of his perfect might Is reached but once throughout the livelong day. We love but once. The waves, with ceaseless motion. Do day and night plash on the pebbled shore ; But the strong tide of the resistless ocean Sweeps in but one hour of the twenty-four. We love but once. A score of times, perchance, We may be moved in fancy's fleeting fashion — May treasure up a word, a tone, a glance, But only once we feel the soul's great passion. We love but once. Love walks with death and birth (The saddest, the unkindest of the three) ; And only once while we sojourn on earth Can that strange trio come to you or me. AN ANSWER. »9 AN ANSWER. If all the year was summertime, And all the aim of life Was just to lilt on like a rhyme — Then I would be your wife. If all the days were August days, And crowned with golden weather, How happy then through green-clad ways We two could stray together ! If all the nights were moonlit nights, And we had naught to do But just to sit and plan delights, Then I would wed with you. If life was all a summer fete, Its soberest pace the " glide," Then I would choose you for my mate, And keep you at my side. 90 POEMS OP PASSION'. But winter makes full half the year, And labor half of life, And all the laughter and good cheer Give place to wearing strife. Days will grow cold, and moons wax old, And then a heart that's true Is better far than grace or gold — And so my love, adieu ! I cannot wed with you. YOU WILL FORGET ME. 91 / YOU WILL FORGET ME. You will forget me. The years are so tender, They bind up the wounds which we think are so deep; This dream of our youth will fade out as the splendor Fades from the skies when the sun sinks to sleep; The cloud of forgetfulness, over and over Will banish the last rosy colors away, * And the fingers of time will weave garlands to cover The scar which you think is a life-mark to-day. You will forget me. The one boon you covet Now above all things will soon seem no prize, And the heart, which you hold not in keeping to prove it True or untrue, will lose worth in your eyes. The one drop today, that you deem only wanting To fill your life-cup to the brim, soon will seem But a valueless mite ; and the ghost that is haunting The aisles of your heart will pass out with the dream 9fi POEMS OF PASSION. You will forget me ; will thank me for saying The words which you think are so pointed with pain, Time loves a new lay ; and the dirge he is playing Will change for you soon to a livelier strain. I shall pass from your life — I shall pass out forever, And these hours we have spent will be sunk in the past. Youth buries its dead; grief kills seldom or never — And forgetfulness covers all sorrows at last. THE FAREWELL OF CLARIMONDE. 93 THE FAREWELL OF CLARIMONDE. (SUGGESTED BY THE "CLARIMONDE" OF THEOPHILE GAUTIER.) Adieu, Romauld! But thou canst not forget me. Although no more I haunt thy dreams at night, Thy hungering heart forever must regret me, And starve for those lost moments of delight. Naught shall avail thy priestly rites and duties — Nor fears of Hell, nor hopes of Heaven beyond : Before the Cross shall rise my fair form's beauties — The lips, the limbs, the eyes of Clarimonde. Like gall the wine sipped from the sacred chalice Shall taste to one who knew my red mouth's bliss : When Youth and Beauty dwelt in Love's own palace, And life flowed on in one eternal kiss. 94 POEMS OF PASSION. Through what strange ways I come, dear heart, to reach thee, From viewless lands, by paths no man e'er trod ! I braved all fears, all dangers dared, to teach thee A love more mighty than thy love of God. Think not in all His Kingdom to discover Such joys, Romauld, as ours, when fierce yet fond I clasped thee — kissed thee — crowned thee my one lover : Thou canst not find another Clarimonde. I knew all arts of love : he who possessed me Possessed all women, and could never tire : A new life dawned for him who once caressed me : Satiety itself I set on fire. Inconstancy I chained : men died to win me ; Kings cast by crowns for one hour on my breast, And all the passionate tide of love within me I gave to thee, Romauld. Wert thou not blest ? THE FAREWELL OF CLARIMONDE. 95 Yet, for the love of God, thy hand hath riven Our welded souls. But not in prayer well conned, Not in thy dearly-purchased peace of Heaven, Canst thou forget those hours with Clarimonde. MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. THE LOST GARDEN. There was a fair green garden sloping From the southeast side of the mountain-ledge ; And the earliest tint of the dawn came groping Down through its paths, from the day's dim edge. The bluest skies and the reddest roses Arched and varied its velvet sod; And the glad birds sang, as the soul supposes The angels sing on the hills of God. I wandered there when my veins seemed bursting With life's rare rapture, and keen delight ; And yet in my heart was a constant thirsting For something over the mountain-height. 100 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. I wanted to stand in the blaze of glory That turned to crimson the peaks of snow, And the winds' from the west all breathed a story Of realms and regions I longed to know. I saw on the garden's south side growing The brightest blossoms that breathe of June-, I saw in the east how the sun was glowing, And the gold air shook with a wild bird's tune ; I heard the drip of a silver fountain, And the pulse of a young laugh throbbed with glee But still I looked out over the mountain Where unnamed wonders awaited me. I came at last to the western gateway That led to the path I longed to climb; But a shadow fell on my spirit straightway, For close at my side stood greybeard Time. I paused, with feet that were fain to linger Hard by that garden's golden gate ; But Time spoke, pointing with one stern finger ; " Pass on," he said, " for the day grows late." THE LOST GARDEN. 101 And now on the chill grey cliffs I wander; The heights recede which I thought to find, And the light seems dim on the mountain yonder, When I think of the garden I left behind. Should I stand at last on its summit's splendor, I know full well it would not repay For the fair lost tints of the dawn so tender That crept up over the edge o' day. I would go back, but the ways are winding, If ways there are to that land, in sooth ; For what man succeeds in ever finding A path to the garden of his lost youth ? But I think sometimes, when the June stars glisten, That a rose-scent drifts from far away ; And I know, when I lean from the cliffs and listen, That a young laugh breaks on the air like spray. 102 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. ART AND HEART. Though critics may bow to art, and I am its own true lover, It is not art, but heart, which wins the wide world over. Though smooth be the heartless prayer, no ear in Heaven will mind it, And the finest phrase falls dead, if there is no feeling behind it. Though perfect the player's touch, little if any he sways us, Unless we feel his heart throb through the music he plays us. Though the poet may spend his life in skilfully round- ing a measure, Unless he writes from a full warm heart, he gives us little pleasure. ART AND HEART, 103 So is not the speech which tells, but the impulse which goes with the saying, And it is not the words of the prayer, but the yearning back of the praying. It is not the artist's skill, which into our soul comes stealing With a joy that is almost pain, but it is the player's feeling. And it is not the poet's song, though sweeter than sweet bells chiming, Which thrills us through and through, but the heart which beats under the rhyming. And therefore I say again, though I am art's own true lover, That it is not art, but heart, which wins the wide world over. 104 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. AS BY FIRE. Sometimes I feel so passionate a yearning For spiritual perfection here below, This vigorous frame with healthful fervor burning, Seems my determined foe. So actively it makes a stern resistance, So cruelly sometimes it wages war Against a wholly spiritual existence Which I am striving for. It interrupts my soul's intense devotions, Some hope it strangles of divinest birth, With a swift rush of violent emotions Which link me to the earth. It is as if two mortal foes contended Within my bosom in a deadly strife, One for the loftier aims for souls intended, Qne for the earthly life, AS BY FIRE. 105 And yet I know this very war within me, Which brings out all my will-power and control; This very conflict at the last shall win me The loved and longed-for goal. The very fire which seems sometimes so cruel, Is the white light, that shows me my own strength. A furnace, fed by the divinest fuel It may become at length. Ah ! when in the immortal ranks enlisted, I sometimes wonder if we shall not find That not by deeds, but by what we've resisted, Our places are assigned. 106 MISCELLANEOUS rOEMS. IF I SHOULD DIE. RONDEAU. If I should die, how kind you all would grow, In that strange hour I would not have one foe. There are no words too beautiful to say Of one who goes forevermore away Across that ebbing tide which has no flow. With what new lustre my good deeds would glow ! If faults were mine, no one would call them so, Or speak of me in aught but praise that day, If I should die. Ah, friends ! before my listening ear lies low, While I can hear and understand, bestow That gentle treatment and fond love, I pray, The lustre of whose late though radiant way Would gild my grave with mocking light, I know, If 5 should die. MISALLIANCE. 107 MISALLIANCE. I am troubled to-night with a curious pain ; It is not of the flesh, it is not of the brain, Nor yet of a heart that is breaking : But down still deeper, and out of sight — In the place where the soul and the body unite — There lies the seat of the aching. They have been lovers, in days gone by; But the soul is fickle, and longs to fly From the fettering misalliance : And she tears at the bonds which are binding her so, And pleads with the body to let her go, But he will not yield compliance. For the body loves, as he loved in the past When he wedded the soul ; and he holds her fast, And swears that he will not loose her ; That he will keep her and hide her away For ever and ever and for a day From the arms of Death, the seducer. m 108 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. Ah ! tnis is the strife that is wearying me — The strife 'twixt a soul that would be free And a body that will not let her. And I say to my soul, " Be calm, and wait ; For I tell ye truly that soon or late Ye surely shall drop each fetter. . And I say to the body, " Be kind, I pray ; For the soul is not of thy mortal clay, But is formed in spirit fashion." And still through the hours of the solemn night I can hear my sad soul's plea for flight, And my body's reply of passion. RESPONSE. 109 RESPONSE. I said this morning, as I leaned and threw My shutters open to the Spring's surprise, "Tell me, O Earth, how is it that in you Year after year the same fresh feelings rise ? How do you keep your young exultant glee ? No more those sweet emotions come to me. "I note through all your fissures, how the tide Of healthful life goes leaping as of old. Your royal dawns retain their pomp and pride ; Your sunsets lose no atom of their gold. How can this wonder be ? " My soul's fine ear Leaned, listening, till a small voice answered near : " My days lapse never over into night ; My nights encroach not on the rights of dawn. I rush not breathless after some delight ; I waste no grief for any pleasure gone. My July noons burn not the entire year. Heart, hearken well ! " Yes, yes ; go on ; I hear. 110 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. " 1 do not strive to make my sunsets' gold Pave all the dim and distant realms of space. I do not bid my crimson dawns unfold To lend the midnight a fictitious grace. I break no law, for all God's laws are good. Heart, hast thou heard?" Yes, yes; and understood. DROUTH. HI DROUTH. Why do we pity those who weep ? The pain That finds a ready outlet in the flow Of salt and bitter tears is blessed woe, And does not need our sympathies. The rain But fits the shorn field for new yield of grain ; While the red brazen skies, the sun's fierce glow. The dry, hot winds that from the tropics blow Do parch and wither the unsheltered plain. The anguish that through long, remorseless years Looks out upon the world with no relief, Of sudden tempests or slow dripping tears, — The still, unuttered, silent, wordless grief That evermore doth ache, and ache, and ache, — This is the sorrow wherewith hearts do break. 112 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. THE CREED. Whoever was begotten by pure love, And came desired and welcome into life, Is of immaculate conception. He Whose heart is full of tenderness and truth, Who loves mankind more than he loves Himself, And cannot find room in His heart for hate, May be another Christ. We all may be The Saviours of the world, if we believe In the Divinity which dwells in us And worship it, and nail our grosser selves, Our tempers, greeds, and our unworthy aims, Upon the cross. Who giveth love to all, Pays kindness for unkindness, smiles for frowns, And lends new courage to each fainting heart, And strengthens hope and scatters joy abroad, He, too, is a Redeemer, Son of God. PROGRESS. 113 PROGRESS. Let there be many windows to your soul, That all the glory of the universe May beautify it. Not the narrow pane Of one poor creed can catch the radiant rays That shine from countless sources. Tear away The blinds of superstition ; let the light Pour through fair windows broad as Truth itself And high as God. Why should the spirit peer Through some priest-curtained orifice, and grope Along dim corridors of doubt, when all The splendor from unfathomed seas of space Might bathe it with the golden waves of Love ? Sweep up the debris of decaying faiths ; Sweep down the cobwebs of worn-out beliefs, And throw your soul wide open to the light Of Reason and of Knowledge. Tune your ear 114 MISCELLANEOUS TOEMS. To all the wordless music of the stars And to the voice of Nature, and your heart Shall turn to truth and goodness, as the plant Turns to the sun. A thousand unseen hands Reach down to help you to their peace-crowned heights. And all the forces of the firmament Shall fortify your strength. Be not afraid To thrust aside half-truths and grasp the whole. MY FRIEND. 115 MY FRIEND. When first I looked upon the face of Pain I shrunk repelled, as one shrinks from a foe Who stands with dagger poised, as for a blow. I was in search of Pleasure and of Gain ; I turned aside to let him pass : in vain ; He looked straight in my eyes and would not go. " Shake hands," he said, " our paths are one, and so We must be comrades on the way, 'tis plain. " I felt the firm clasp of his hand on mine; Through all my veins it sent a strengthening glow. I straightway linked my arm in his, and lo ! He led me forth to joys almost divine; With God's great truths enriched me in the end, And now I hold him as my dearest friend. 110 MJSCELLANEO US POEMS. RED CARNATIONS. One time in Arcadie's fair bowers There met a bright immortal band, To choose their emblems from the flowers That made an Eden of that land. Sweet Constancy, with eyes of hope, Strayed down the garden path alone And gathered sprays of heliotrope, To place in clusters at her zone. True Friendship plucked the ivy green, Forever fresh, forever fair. Inconstancy with flippant mien The fading primrose chose to wear. One moment Love the rose paused by ; But Beauty picked it for her hair. Love paced the garden with a sigh, — He found no fitting emblem there. RED CARNATIONS. 117 Then suddenly he saw a flame ; A conflagration turned to bloom. It even put the rose to shame, Both in its beauty and perfume. He watched it, and it did not fade; He plucked it, and it brighter grew. In cold or heat, all undismayed, It kept its fragrance and its hue. Here deathless love and passion sleep," He cried, " embodied in this flower. This is the emblem I will keep." Love wore carnations from that hour. 118 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. LIFE IS TOO SHORT. Life is too short for any vain regretting ; Let dead delight bury its dead, I say, And let us go upon our way forgetting The joys, and sorrows, of each yesterday. Between the swift sun's rising and its setting, We have no time for useless tears or fretting, Life is too short. Life is too short for any bitter feeling; Time is the best avenger if we wait, The years speed by, and on their wings bear healing, We have no room for anything like hate. This solemn truth the low mounds seem revealing That thick and fast about our feet are stealing; Life is too short. Life is too short for aught but high endeavor, — Too short for spite, but long enough for love. And love lives on forever and forever, It links the worlds that circle on above ; 'Tis God's first law, the universe's lever. In His vast realm the radiant souls sigh never "Life is too short." A SCULPTOR. 119 A SCULPTOR. As the ambitious sculptor, tireless, lifts Chisel and hammer to the block at hand, Before my half-formed character I stand And ply the shining tools of mental gifts. I'll cut away a huge, unsightly side, Of selfishness, and smooth to curves of grace The angles of ill-temper. And no trace Shall my sure hammer leave of silly pride. Chip after chip must fall from vain desires, And the sharp corners of my discontent Be rounded into symmetry, and lent Great harmony by faith that never tires. Unfinished still, I must toil on and on, Till the pale critic, Death, shall say, " 'Tis done. 120 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. CREATION. The impulse of all love is to create. God was so full of love, in his embrace He clasped the empty nothingness of space, And lo ! the solar system ! High in state The mighty sun sat, so supreme and great With this same essence, one smile of its face Brought myriad forms of life forth ; race on race From insects up to men. Through love, not hate, All that is grand in nature or in art Sprang into being. He who would build sublime And lasting works, to stand the test of time Must inspiration draw from his full heart. And he who loveth widely, well and much, The secret holds of the true master touch. BEYOND. 121 BEYOND It seemeth such a little way to me Across to that strange country — the Beyond; And yet, not strange, for it has grown to be The home of those of whom I am so fond, They make it seem familiar and most dear. As journeying friends bring distant regions near. So close it lies, that when my sight is clear I think I almost see the gleaming strand. I know I feel those who have gone from here Come near enough sometimes, to touch my hand. I often think, but for our veiled eyes, We should find Heaven right round about us lies. I cannot make it seem a day to dread, When from this dear earth I shall journey out To that still dearer country of the dead, And join the lost ones, so long dreamed about. I love this world, yet shall I love to go And meet the friends who wait for me, I know. 122 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. I never stand above a bier and see The seal of death set on some well-loved face But that I think, " One more to welcome me, When I shall cross the intervening space Between this land and that one ' over there ' ; One more to make the strange Bevond seem fair. And so for me there is no sting to death, And so the grave has lost its victory. It is but crossing — with a bated breath, And white, set face — a little strip of sea, To find the loved ones waiting on the shore, More beautiful, more precious than before. THE SADDEST HOUR. 123 THE SADDEST HOUR. The saddest hour of anguish and of loss Is not that season of supreme despair When we can find no least light anywhere To gild the dread, black shadow of the Cross. Not in that luxury of sorrow when We sup on salt of tears, and drink the gall Of memories of days beyond recall — Of lost delights that cannot come again. But when, with eyes that are no longer wet, We look out on the great, wide world of men, And, smiling, lean toward a bright tomorrow, Then backward shrink, with sudden keen regret, To1 find that we are learning to forget : Ah ! then we face the saddest hour of sorrow. 124 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. SHOW ME THE WAY. Show me the way that leads to the true life. I do not care what tempests may assail me, I shall be given courage for the strife, I know my strength will not desert or fail me ; I know that I shall conquer in the fray : Show me the way. Show me the way up to a higher plane, Where body shall be servant to the soul. I do not care what tides of woe, or pain, Across my life their angry waves may roll, If I but reach the end I seek some day : Show me the way. Show me the way, and let me bravely climb Above vain grievings for unworthy treasures; Above all sorrow that finds balm in time — Above small triumphs, or belittling pleasures ; Up to those heights where these things seem child's play Show me the way. SHOW ME THE WAY. 125 Show me the way to that calm, perfect peace Which springs from an inward consciousness of right ; To where all conflicts with the flesh shall cease, And self shall radiate with the spirit's light. Though hard the journey and the strife, I pray Show me the way. l£6 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. MY HERITAGE. I into life so full of love was sent, That all the shadows which fall on the way Of every human being, could not stay, But fled before the light my spirit lent, [ saw the world through gold and crimson dyes : Men sighed, and said, " Those rosy hues will fade As you pass on into the glare and shade ! " Still beautiful the way seems to mine eyes. They said, "You are too jubilant and glad; The world is full of sorrow and of wrong. Full soon your lips shall breathe forth sighs — not song ! " The day wears on, and yet I am not sad. They said, " You love too largely, and you must Through wound on wound, grow bitter to your kind." They were false prophets ; day by day I find More cause for love, and less cause for distrust. MY HERMITAGE. 127 They said, " Too free you give your soul's rare wine ; The world will quaff, but it will not repay." Yet into the emptied flagons, day by day, True hearts pour back a nectar as divine. Thy heritage ! Is it not love's estate ? Look to it, then, and keep its soil well tilled. I hold that my best wishes are fulfilled Because I love so much, and cannot hate. 128 MISCELLANEO US POEMS. RESOLVE. Build on resolve, and not upon regret, The structure of thy future. Do not grope Among the shadows of old sins, but let i Thine own soul's light shine on the path of hope And dissipate the darkness. Waste no tears Upon the blotted record of lost years, But turn the leaf, and smile, oh, smile, to see The fair white pages that remain for thee. Prate not of thy repentance. But believe The spark divine dwells in thee : let it grow. That which the upreaching spirit can achieve The grand and all creative forces know ; They will assist and strengthen as the light Lifts up the acorn to the oak-tree's height. Thou hast but to resolve, and lo ! God's whole Great universe shall fortify thv soul. AT ELEUSIS. 129 AT ELEUSIS. I, at Eleusis, saw the finest sight, When early morning's banners were unfurled. From high Olympus, gazing on the world, The ancient gods once saw it with delight. Sad Demeter had in a single night Removed her sombre garments ! and mine eyes Beheld a 'broidered mantle in pale dyes Thrown o'er her throbbing bosom. Sweet and clear There fell the sound of music on mine ear. And from the South came Hermes, he whose lyre One time appeased the great Apollo's ire. The rescued maid, Persephone, by the hand, He led to waiting Demeter, and cheer And light and beauty once more blessed the land. 130 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. COURAGE. There is a courage, a majestic thing That springs forth from the brow of pain, full-grown, Minerva-like, and dares all dangers known, And all the threatening future yet may bring ; Crowned with the helmet of great suffering, Serene with that grand strength by martyrs shown, When at the stake they die and make no moan, And even as the flames leap up are heard to sing. A courage so sublime and unafraid, It wears its sorrows like a coat of mail; And fate, the archer, passes by dismayed, Knowing his best barbed arrows needs must fail To pierce a soul so armored and arrayed That death himself might look on it and quail. SOLITUDE. 131 SOLITUDE. C Laugh, and the world laughs with you ; Weep, and you weep alone, For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth, But has trouble enough of its own. Sing, and the hills will answer ; Sigh, it is lost on the air, The echoes bound to a joyful sound, But shrink from voicing care. jg Rejoice, and men will seek you ; Grieve, and they turn and go. They want full measure of all your pleasure, But they do not need your woe. Be glad, and your friends are many ; Be sad, and you lose them all, — There are none to decline your nectar'd wine, 'But alone yo'- must drink life's gall 132 MISCELLANEOUS FOEMS. Feast, and your halls are crowded Fast, and the world goes by. Succeed and give, and it helps you live, But no man can help you die. There is room in the halls of pleasure For a large and lordly train, But one by one we must all file on . Through the narrow aisles of pain. THE YEAR OUTGROWS THE SPRING. 133 THE YEAR OUTGROWS THE SPRING. The year outgrows the spring it thought so sweet And clasps the summer with a new delight, Yet wearied, leaves her languors and her heat When cool-browed autumn dawns upon his sight. The tree outgrows the bud's suggestive grace And feels new pride in blossoms fully blown. But even this to deeper joy gives place When bending boughs 'neath blushing burdens groan. Life's rarest moments are derived from change. The heart outgrows old happiness, old grief, And suns itself in feelings new and strange. The most enduring pleasure is but brief. Our tastes, our needs, are never twice the same. Nothing contents us long, however dear. The spirit in us, like the grosser frame, Outgrows the garments which it wore last year. 134 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. Change is the watchword of Progression. When We tire of well-worn ways, we seek for new. This restless craving in the souls of men Spurs them to climb, and seek the mountain view. So let who will erect an altar shrine To meek-browed Constancy, and sing her praise. Unto enlivening Change I shall build mine, Who lends new zest, and interest to my day. 7 HE BEAUTIFUL LAND OF NOD. 135 THF BEAUTIFUL LAND OF NOD. Come, cuddle your head on my shoulder, dear, Your head like the golden-rod, And we will go sailing away from here To the beautiful Land of Nod. Away from life's hurry, and flurry, and worry, Away from earth's shadows and gloom, To a world of fair weather we'll float off together Where roses are always in bloom. Just shut up your eyes, and fold your hands, Your hands like the leaves of a rose, And we will go sailing to those fair lands That never an atlas shows. On the North and the West they are bounded by rest, On the South and the East, by dreams ; Tis the country ideal, where nothing is real, But everything only seems. 136 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. Just drop down the curtains of your dear eyes, Those eyes like a bright blue-bell, And we will sail out under starlit skies, To the land where the fairies dwell. Down the river of sleep, our barque shall sweep, Till it reaches that mystical Isle Which no man hath seen, but where all have been, And there we will pause awhile. I will croon you a song as we float along, To that shore that is blessed of God, Then ho ! for that fair land, we're off for that rare land, That beautiful Land of Nod. THE TIGER. 18', THE TIGER. In the still jungle of the senses lay A tiger soundly sleeping, till one day A bold young hunter chanced to come that way. " How calm," he said, " that splendid creature lies, I long to rouse him into swift surprise ! " The well aimed arrow-shot from amorous eyes, And lo ! the tiger rouses up and turns, A coal of fire his glowing eyeball burns, His mighty frame with savage hunger yearns. He crouches for a spring ; his eyes dilate — Alas ! bold hunter, what shall be thy fate ? Thou canst not fly, it is too late, too late. Once having tasted human flesh, ah ! then, Woe, woe unto the whole rash world of men, The wakened tiger will not sleep again. 138 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. ONLY A SIMPLE RHYME. Only a simple rhyme of love and sorrow, Where " blisses " rhymed with " kisses," " heart," with " dart." Yet, reading it, new strength I seemed to borrow, To live on bravely, and to do my part. A little rhyme about a heart that's bleeding — Of lonely hours, and sorrow's unrelief. I smiled at first ; but there came with the reading, A sense of sweet companionship in grief. The selfishness of my own woe forsaking, I thought about the singer of that song. Some other breast felt this same weary aching, Another found the summer days too long. The few sad lines, my sorrow so expressing, I read, and on the singer, all unknown, I breathed a fervent, though a silent, blessing, And seemed to clasp his hand within my own. ONLY A SIMPLE RHYME. \& And though fame pass him, and he never know it, And though he never sings another strain, He has performed the mission of the poet, In helping some sad heart to bear its pain. 140 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. 1 WILL BE WORTHY OF IT. I may not reach the heights I seek, My untried strength may fail me ; Or, half-way up the mountain peak* Fierce tempests may assail me. But though that place I never gain, Herein lies comfort for my pain — I will be worthy of it. I may not triumph in success, Despite my earnest labor ; I may not grasp results that bless The efforts of my neighbor. But though my goal I never see This thought shall always dwell with me- I will be worthy of it. / WILL BE WORTHY OF IT. 141 The golden glory of Love's light May never fall on my way ; My path may always lead through night, Like some deserted by-way But though life's dearest joy I miss There lies a nameless strength in this — I will be worthy of »t, 142 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. SONNET. Methinks ofttimes my heart is like some bee, That goes forth through the summer clay and sings, And gathers honey from all growing things In garden plot, or on the clover lea. When the long afternoon grows late, and she Would seek her hive, she cannot lift her wings, So heavily the too sweet burden clings, From which she would not, and yet would, fly free. So with my full fond heart ; for when it tries To lift itself to peace-crowned heights, above The common way where countless feet have trod, Lo ! then, this burden of dear human ties, This growing weight of precious earthly love, Binds down the spirit that would soar to God. LE T ME LEAN HARD. 143 LET ME LEAN HARD. Let me lean hard upon the Eternal Breast : In all earth's devious ways, I sought for rest And found it not. I will be strong, said 1, And lean upon myself. I will not cry And importune all heaven with my complaint, But now my strength fails, and I fall, I faint : Let me lean hard. Let me lean hard upon the unfailing Arm. I said I will walk on, I fear no harm, The spark divine within my soul will show The upward pathway where my feet should go. But now the heights to which I most aspire Are lost in clouds. I stumble and I tire . Let me lean hard. Let me lean harder yet. That swerveless force Which speeds the solar systems on their course 144 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS Can take, unfelt, the burden of my woe, Which bears me to the dust and hurts me so. I thought my strength enough for any fate, But lo ! I sink beneath my sorrow's weight : Let me lean hard. PENALTY. 145 PENALTY. Because of the fullness of what I had All that I have seems void and vain. If I had not been happy, I were not sad, Though my salt is savorless, wny complain ? From the ripe perfection of what was mine, All that is mine seems worse than naught. Yet I know as I sit in the dark and pine, No cup could be drained which had not been fraught. From the throb, and thrill, of a day that was, The day that now is seems dull with gloom. Yet I bear its dullness and darkness because 'Tis but the reaction of glow and bloom. From the royal feast which of old was spread I am starved on the diet which now is mine ; Vet I could not turn hungry from water and bread, If I had not been sated on fruit and wine. 146 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS, SUNSET. I saw the day lean o'er the world's sharp edge, And peer into night's chasm, dark and damp. High in his hand he held a blazing lamp, Then dropped it, and plunged headlong down the ledge. With lurid splendor that swift paled to gray, I saw the dim skies suddenly flush bright. 'Twas but the expiring glory of the light Flung from the hand of the adventurous day. THE WHEEL OF THE BREAST U" / THE WHEEL OF THE BREAST, Through rivers of veins on the namelesss quest The tide of my life goes hurriedly sweeping, Till it reaches that curious wheel o' the breast, The human heart, which is never at rest. Faster, faster, it cries, and leaping, Plunging, dashing, speeding away, The wheel and the river work night and day. I know not wherefore, I know not whither This strange tide rushes with such mad force It glides on hither, it slides on thither, Over and over the selfsame course, With never an outlet and never a source ; And it lashes itself to the heat of passion And whirls the heart in mill-wheel fashion. 148 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. I can hear in the hush of the still, Still night, The ceaseless sound of that mighty river ; I can hear it gushing, gurgling, rushing With a wild, delirious strange delight, And a conscious pride in its sense of mighc, As it hurries and worries my heart forever. And I wonder oft as I lie awake, And list to the river that seethes and surges Over the wheel that it chides and urges, — I wonder oft if that wheel will break With the mighty pressure it bears, some day, Or slowly and wearily wear away. For little by little the heart is wearing, Like the wheel of the mill, as the tide goes tearing And plunging hurriedly through my breaet, In a network of veins on a nameless quest, From and forth, unto unknown oceans, Bringing its cargoes of fierce emotions, With never a pause or an hour for rest. A MEETING. 149 A MEETING. inline carelessly I turned the newsy sheet ; A song I sang, full many a year ago, Smiled up at me, as in a busy street # One meets an old-time friend he used to know. So full it was, that simple little song, Of all the hope, the transport, and the truth, Which to the impetuous morn of life belong, That, once again, I seemed to grasp my youth. So full it was of that sweet, fancied pain We woo and cherish ere we meet with wo. I felt, as one who hears a plaintive strain His mother sang him in the long ago. Up from the grave, the years that lay between That song's birthday and my stern present, came Like phantom forms, and swept across the scene, Bearing their broken dreams of love and fame, 150 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. Fair hopes and bright ambitions that I knew In that old time, with their ideal grace, Shone for a moment, then were lost to view, Behind the dull clouds of the commonplace. With trembling hands I put the sheet away; Ah, little song ! the sad and bitter truth Struck like an arrow when we met that day-! My life has missed the promise of its youth. EARNESTNESS, 151 EARNESTNESS. The hurry of the times affects us so In this swift rushing hour, we crowd, and press, And thrust each other backward, as we go, And do not pause to lay sufficient stress Upon that good, strong, true word, Earnestness. In our impetuous haste, could we but know Its full, deep meaning, its vast import, oh, Then might we grasp the secret of success f In that receding age when men were great, The bone, and sinew, of their purpose lay In this one word. God likes an earnest soul — Too earnest to be eager. Soon or late It leaves the spent horde breathless by the way, And stands serene, triumphant, at the goal. 152 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. A PICTURE. I strolled last eve across the lonely down,' One solitary picture struck my eye. A distant plowboy stood against the sky — How far he seemed, ah^ve the noisy town ! i Upon the bosom of a cloud the sod Laid its bruised cheek, as he moved slowly by, And, watching him, I asked myself if 1 In very truth stood half as near to God. MOCKERY, 153 MOCKERY. Why do we grudge our sweets so to the living, Who, God knows, find at best too much of gall, And then with generous, open hands kneel, giving Unto the dead our all ? Why do we pierce the warm hearts, sin or sorrow, With idle jests, or scorn, or cruel sneers, And when it cannot know, on some to-morrow, Speak of its woe through tears ? What do the dead care for the tender token — The love, the praise, the floral offerings? But palpitating, living hearts are broken For want of just these things. 154 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. TWIN-BORN. He who possesses virtue at its best, Or greatness in the true sense of the word, Has one day started even with that herd Whose swift feet now speed, but at sin's behest. It is the same force in the human breast Which makes men gods or demons. If we gird Those strong emotions by which we are stirred With might of will and purpose, heights unguessed Shall dawn for us ; or if we give them sway We can sink down and consort with the lost. All virtue is worth just the price it cost. Black sin is oft white truth, that missed its way, And wandered off in paths not understood. Twin-born I hold great evil and great good. FLOODS. 155 FLOODS. In the dark night, from sweet refreshing sleep I wake to hear outside my window-pane The uncurbed fury of the wild spring rain, And weird winds lashing the defiant deep, And roar of floods that gather strength, and leap Down dizzy, wreck-strewn channels to the main. I turn upon my pillow, and again Compose myself for slumber. Let them sweep : I once survived great floods, and do not fear, Though ominous planets congregate, and seem To foretell strange disasters From a dream — Ah ! dear God ! such a dream ! — f woke to hear, Through the dense shadows lit by no stars gleam, The rush of mighty waters on my ear. Helpless, afraid, and all alone, I lay ; The floods had come upon me unaware. 156 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. I heard the crash of structures that were fair; The bridges of fond hopes were swept away By great salt waves of sorrow. In dismay I saw by the red lightning's lurid glare That on the rock-bound island of despair I had been cast. Till the dim dawn of day I heard my castles falling, and the roll Of angry billows bearing to the sea The broken timbers of my very soul. Were all the pent-up waters from the whole Stupendous solar system to break free. There are no floods now that can frighten me. REGRET. 157 REGRET. There is a haunting phantom called Regret, A shadowy creature robed somewhat like Wo, But fairer in the face, whom all men know By her sad mien, and eyes forever wet. No heart would seek her ; but once having met All take her by the hand, and to and fro They wander through those paths of long ago- - Those hallowed ways 'twere wiser to forget. One day she led me to that lost land's gate And bade me enter ; but I answered " No ! I will pass on with my bold comrade Fate ; I have no tears to waste on thee — no time — My strength I hoard for heights I hope to climb, No friend art thou, for souls that would be great." 158 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. A FABLE. Some cawing Crows, a hooting Owl, A Hawk, a Canary, an old Marsh-Fowl, One day all met together, To hold n caucus and settle the fate Of a certain bird (without a mate), A bird of another feather. " My friends," said the Owl, with a look most wise The Eagle is soaring too near the skies, In a way that is quite improper ; Yet the world is praising her, so I'm told, And I think her actions have grown so bold That some of us ought to stop her.,? " I have heard it said," quoth Hawk, with a sigh, " That young lambs died at the glance of her eye. And I wholly scorn and despise her. This, and more, I am told they say — And I think that the only proper way Is never to recognize her." A FABLE. 159 " I am quite convinced." said Crow, with a caw, "That the Eagle minds no moral law, She's a most unruly creature. " " She's an ugly thing," piped Canary Bird ; " Some call her handsome — it's so absurd — She hasn't a decent feature." Then the old Marsh Hen went hopping about, She said she was sure — she hadn't a doubt — Of the truth of each bird's story : And she thought it a duty to stop her flight, To pull her down from her lofty height, And take the gilt from her glory. Bnt, lo ! from a peak on the mountain grand That looks out over the smiling land And over the mighty ocean, The Eagle is spreading her splendid wings — She rises, rises, and upward swings, With a slow, majestic motion. 1(50 MISCELLANEOUS POEMS. Up in the blue of God's own skies, With a cry of rapture, away she flies, Close to the Great Eternal : She sweeps the world with her piercing sight- Her soul is filled with the infinite And the joy of things supernal. Thus rise forever the chosen of God, The genius-crowned or the power-shod, Over the dust-world sailing ; And back, like splinters blown by the winds, Must fall the missiles of silly minds, Useless and unavailing.